Getting ready for my BFN, how is everyone else holding up?

Hang in there, girl. That's all you can do, right? It's hard, I know. I have been ttc #1 for 15 years. I am about to begin in a few weeks another IVF attempt, this time using an egg donor. The anxiety about my body failing after my DH does his part, and the egg donor doing her part is driving me nuts. I have nightmares every night now, and it's consumed me during the day. To make me even more depressed about my infertility is my DH's cousin gave birth yesterday after complaining her entire time she was pregnant. If only my DH and I could so easily make a baby for FREE while doing the good 'ol fashioned BD. Must be nice, instead of the countless BW pokes, 4 or 5 surgeries I"ve had, a failed IVF attempt, and being told that we must choose an egg donor if we have any hope to conceive a family. So in a nutshell: I am a real depressed basket case right now. And to think: after 15 years of ttc, I thought I had become a real pro at being able to wait and be patient on becoming pregnant. Not so much, it seems. Email me if you like for some support. Or follow my IVF blog, if you like. You can find the link on my profile. Again, best of luck to you. I'm pulling for you. <3